I am the second oldest of 7. We are a blended family and I don't define my siblings as half or step. We are all one.
Being the second oldest (middle child in the original family), and a Libra, I am a natural peacekeeper. A balancer of scales.
I am going to take this time in this entry to record some of the messages I have had to send to my brother. When my dad passed we couldn't find his will. He had taken it and was planning on redoing it to make it fair for his 5 children. Well, at his passing the only thing we had to go on were who he had named the beneficiaries of his money. My 2 siblings who shared my dad and stepmom as parents.
Now, my sister believed they were entitled to that money because of sharing the parents and they did not receive anything when their mom passed. Maybe my dad should have given them each a little something, but he didn't.
It didn't make it right though for the other 3 of us to be left out. You never want death to be about money, but when your sister buys a house and says it is the house "dad bought her", she is too blind to see the rest of us could have benefited from a "gift" from both my brother and sister so we could have something to say the same thing. nope.
We all will split the money from the sales of the house. woop woop. there isn't going to be much left.
My brother on the other hand is spending his half like a sailor. He is not working, has a girlfriend with a kid, and is living and spending like he has all the money in the world. The average person goes through an inheritance in about 18 months. He is well on his way. Anyway, I am going to record some of the conversations I have been sending his way for my own benefit. Kind of a recording of sorts if anything were to happen. I just feel like this needs to be written down.
I am the only one he seems to HALF listen to. I will take that and accept that, however, I wish he would really listen. He lived with us for 2 months and our house is filled with his stuff downstairs, car in the driveway, and his unpaid bills. He went back to the south for a little bit to gather his things and come back up here to live.
So far, he has yet to return. Here are some of the things I have said in the last week: My patience is running thin.
Z: after me asking why he hasn't cleaned out the condo yet. This was his number one reason for going.
Truly solid advice. We were planning on going today, except my emergency card is back in the hole(of course it can only access checking :/) and there's an issue with the water pump in Ranger Ricki. I'll get my new card tomorrow and look at the truck with Mike. Practicality might dictate going on Wednesday or Thursday.
Le Sigh.
The good news is that we're doing really well. Only smoked weed a couple times, and we've gone out but twice. Having adult conversations, resolving arguments without violence, drinking nondairy milk, looking after Orla, making campfires, playing guitar with Mom; I think you would smile
Making dinner with Tress tonight.
Love you, and I'll talk to you soon.
,Me:
Doesn't Orla have school during the day? Just sayin... what’s your new plan? Obviously next week isn’t going to work with return with the stall speed you are going. Not a biggie, but I can’t help think you gotta get a job at some point Zach. Probably not the message you want to wake up to, but I’d hate to see you wake up one day to all your money gone and absolutely nothing to show for it. Rain doesn’t stop progress in other things. Regain focus Zach. You didn’t go back to play caretaker. You went back with a purpose. Excuses be gone. Time to play adult again.
He sent me messages with thanks for my concern. Meanwhile, we start getting bills.
Me after I sent him a text he didn't respond to.
Okay. I will try here to see if I get better results. So, I was hoping I was different. That you respected me enough to not do what you have done in the past to both Dad and Claire, which was not respond to messages. Here is the deal Z You told me before you left how manipulative Tressie is and has been to you. I know you have been trying to share how good she is doing, etc.. but it is YOU I care about at this moment. Obviously, being with Tressie has brought you back to a state where for whatever reason, you feel it is okay to ignore your life responsibilities and your family. I can't help but assume manipulation is playing a factor here based on the past stories you shared. We are getting mail and bills here now in your name. Your car is parked in my driveway. Your clothes are in my basement. You are not responding to me, and frankly I am just about out of patience. I do not deserve this treatment. You need to get in touch with me, and not with a "I am life ing" good. Obviously, you are not or you would have completed the responsibilities you went down there to do. I can't help but show frustration in my messages to you because I am BEYOND HURT that you feel this sort of treatment to me after all the love and support I have shared these past few months, and frankly your whole life, is okay. Please get in touch with me Z.
Z: You are right. You deserve better. You've showed me nothing but love and support, and I didn't act right. I know this. Please don't blame her. This is my fault. I love you and I'm grateful for how you've helped me, and without your support there's no way I could have the strength that I do have. You are wonderful and I've wounded you, and for that I'm very sorry. I am ok. Despite what you may think, I, and she have been doing so very much better. I'm sorry, Sarah. I do have my phone, and if you'd like to talk, I will. Please forgive me (again lol [but not lol]). Know that I love you, please do.
Me:
Good morning. I can talk possibly later today. I have meetings this a.m. But on the chance we can't here is what I need to say:
#1. I am not looking for an apology Zach, because those are just words. I am looking for you to show me what you say is true. I know you and Tressie are getting along just fine. That is great for you both, but what are you doing? I need to ask. Is Tressie working? Or is she helping in the spending of your "make an actual plan be able to happen because my dad gave me a gift of money"? When money isn't an issue, it is amazing how relationships go so smooth. What happens when you run out? Have you forgotten how things used to be with you too? Please answer these next questions:
2. Is your new plan to have her move up here with you.
3. Have you abandoned your plan of relocating here and you are going to stay down there?
Next, about the money. Now I am not saying this because you left me 25% to split with Amy and Erin, because ONE, you are not going to die, and in all reality, I think you are more than likely going to blow through it in the next few years anyway. THAT is what concerns me more than anything. You wasting a perfectly good opportunity to make a mark on your world.
Do you know, "A dream is just a dream without a plan"? That is an actual quote.
My number 4 question is WHAT is your plan?
You spent your time writing me back, but ignored really anything I said in the previous texts or messages. You ignored everything I asked. You only commented on my feelings, which I am glad you acknowledged, but when you talk about being strong..... I was expecting that strength to be shown in the ACTIONS of your PLAN before you went down there. Not strength in your ability to get along with Tressie.
Have you even removed the items from the condo? THAT was your purpose for going down there, plus saying your goodbyes.
These are the questions I would like to see answered. All of them.
Until I see action based on what you told me you were planning on doing, the strength in your mission of making a better life for yourself has still yet to be seen. I know you have it in you, but this all comes back to the conversation we had about the word RELIABLE. Your inability to make this one of your stronger character traits has impacted so many things in your life Zach (and not for the positive). Sure you can say you are being reliable to Tressie and Orla now, but again, you are not paying rent, not having to work, and really not living in the real world of adulthood. You need to become reliable to yourself and reliable to being responsible. When you have put that together, THEN hopefully you will realize that being reliable to yourself and responsibility make it easier to be reliable to those around you who count on you.
Quit living off of Dad's money and start living for yourself. Make a plan Zach, no matter what that plan involves. As long as your plan is moving you towards a better life, a more STABLE life. Living paycheck to paycheck is for the 20 year olds. NOT your age people. Sorry. I have to throw the age factor in there Be a walker not just a talker.
Until I hear a response, that is all for now.
Being the second oldest (middle child in the original family), and a Libra, I am a natural peacekeeper. A balancer of scales.
I am going to take this time in this entry to record some of the messages I have had to send to my brother. When my dad passed we couldn't find his will. He had taken it and was planning on redoing it to make it fair for his 5 children. Well, at his passing the only thing we had to go on were who he had named the beneficiaries of his money. My 2 siblings who shared my dad and stepmom as parents.
Now, my sister believed they were entitled to that money because of sharing the parents and they did not receive anything when their mom passed. Maybe my dad should have given them each a little something, but he didn't.
It didn't make it right though for the other 3 of us to be left out. You never want death to be about money, but when your sister buys a house and says it is the house "dad bought her", she is too blind to see the rest of us could have benefited from a "gift" from both my brother and sister so we could have something to say the same thing. nope.
We all will split the money from the sales of the house. woop woop. there isn't going to be much left.
My brother on the other hand is spending his half like a sailor. He is not working, has a girlfriend with a kid, and is living and spending like he has all the money in the world. The average person goes through an inheritance in about 18 months. He is well on his way. Anyway, I am going to record some of the conversations I have been sending his way for my own benefit. Kind of a recording of sorts if anything were to happen. I just feel like this needs to be written down.
I am the only one he seems to HALF listen to. I will take that and accept that, however, I wish he would really listen. He lived with us for 2 months and our house is filled with his stuff downstairs, car in the driveway, and his unpaid bills. He went back to the south for a little bit to gather his things and come back up here to live.
So far, he has yet to return. Here are some of the things I have said in the last week: My patience is running thin.
Z: after me asking why he hasn't cleaned out the condo yet. This was his number one reason for going.
Truly solid advice. We were planning on going today, except my emergency card is back in the hole(of course it can only access checking :/) and there's an issue with the water pump in Ranger Ricki. I'll get my new card tomorrow and look at the truck with Mike. Practicality might dictate going on Wednesday or Thursday.
Le Sigh.
The good news is that we're doing really well. Only smoked weed a couple times, and we've gone out but twice. Having adult conversations, resolving arguments without violence, drinking nondairy milk, looking after Orla, making campfires, playing guitar with Mom; I think you would smile
Making dinner with Tress tonight.
Love you, and I'll talk to you soon.
,Me:
Doesn't Orla have school during the day? Just sayin... what’s your new plan? Obviously next week isn’t going to work with return with the stall speed you are going. Not a biggie, but I can’t help think you gotta get a job at some point Zach. Probably not the message you want to wake up to, but I’d hate to see you wake up one day to all your money gone and absolutely nothing to show for it. Rain doesn’t stop progress in other things. Regain focus Zach. You didn’t go back to play caretaker. You went back with a purpose. Excuses be gone. Time to play adult again.
He sent me messages with thanks for my concern. Meanwhile, we start getting bills.
Me after I sent him a text he didn't respond to.
Okay. I will try here to see if I get better results. So, I was hoping I was different. That you respected me enough to not do what you have done in the past to both Dad and Claire, which was not respond to messages. Here is the deal Z You told me before you left how manipulative Tressie is and has been to you. I know you have been trying to share how good she is doing, etc.. but it is YOU I care about at this moment. Obviously, being with Tressie has brought you back to a state where for whatever reason, you feel it is okay to ignore your life responsibilities and your family. I can't help but assume manipulation is playing a factor here based on the past stories you shared. We are getting mail and bills here now in your name. Your car is parked in my driveway. Your clothes are in my basement. You are not responding to me, and frankly I am just about out of patience. I do not deserve this treatment. You need to get in touch with me, and not with a "I am life ing" good. Obviously, you are not or you would have completed the responsibilities you went down there to do. I can't help but show frustration in my messages to you because I am BEYOND HURT that you feel this sort of treatment to me after all the love and support I have shared these past few months, and frankly your whole life, is okay. Please get in touch with me Z.
Z: You are right. You deserve better. You've showed me nothing but love and support, and I didn't act right. I know this. Please don't blame her. This is my fault. I love you and I'm grateful for how you've helped me, and without your support there's no way I could have the strength that I do have. You are wonderful and I've wounded you, and for that I'm very sorry. I am ok. Despite what you may think, I, and she have been doing so very much better. I'm sorry, Sarah. I do have my phone, and if you'd like to talk, I will. Please forgive me (again lol [but not lol]). Know that I love you, please do.
Me:
Good morning. I can talk possibly later today. I have meetings this a.m. But on the chance we can't here is what I need to say:
#1. I am not looking for an apology Zach, because those are just words. I am looking for you to show me what you say is true. I know you and Tressie are getting along just fine. That is great for you both, but what are you doing? I need to ask. Is Tressie working? Or is she helping in the spending of your "make an actual plan be able to happen because my dad gave me a gift of money"? When money isn't an issue, it is amazing how relationships go so smooth. What happens when you run out? Have you forgotten how things used to be with you too? Please answer these next questions:
2. Is your new plan to have her move up here with you.
3. Have you abandoned your plan of relocating here and you are going to stay down there?
Next, about the money. Now I am not saying this because you left me 25% to split with Amy and Erin, because ONE, you are not going to die, and in all reality, I think you are more than likely going to blow through it in the next few years anyway. THAT is what concerns me more than anything. You wasting a perfectly good opportunity to make a mark on your world.
Do you know, "A dream is just a dream without a plan"? That is an actual quote.
My number 4 question is WHAT is your plan?
You spent your time writing me back, but ignored really anything I said in the previous texts or messages. You ignored everything I asked. You only commented on my feelings, which I am glad you acknowledged, but when you talk about being strong..... I was expecting that strength to be shown in the ACTIONS of your PLAN before you went down there. Not strength in your ability to get along with Tressie.
Have you even removed the items from the condo? THAT was your purpose for going down there, plus saying your goodbyes.
These are the questions I would like to see answered. All of them.
Until I see action based on what you told me you were planning on doing, the strength in your mission of making a better life for yourself has still yet to be seen. I know you have it in you, but this all comes back to the conversation we had about the word RELIABLE. Your inability to make this one of your stronger character traits has impacted so many things in your life Zach (and not for the positive). Sure you can say you are being reliable to Tressie and Orla now, but again, you are not paying rent, not having to work, and really not living in the real world of adulthood. You need to become reliable to yourself and reliable to being responsible. When you have put that together, THEN hopefully you will realize that being reliable to yourself and responsibility make it easier to be reliable to those around you who count on you.
Quit living off of Dad's money and start living for yourself. Make a plan Zach, no matter what that plan involves. As long as your plan is moving you towards a better life, a more STABLE life. Living paycheck to paycheck is for the 20 year olds. NOT your age people. Sorry. I have to throw the age factor in there Be a walker not just a talker.
Until I hear a response, that is all for now.
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