I actually have a thought some people may actually identify with.
What do "Stay at home mom's" worry about?
The reason I ask is this. I have always wanted to be exactly that: a stay at home mom and my main job is to take care of the house and kids. To be able to wake up, worry about these tasks, grocery shop, clean the house, prepare dinner, maybe work out... This honestly sounded so great!! Who out there agrees with me??? Here is the reality.
I have always wanted this and I got it. I am that blessed mom with all these amazing perks of life, but I have one problem... I decided to start my own business.
Tomorrow I am going to the mall. I am going to finish my holiday gift shopping. I am going with my college daughter who is home for a month, and my friend who is a stay at home mom. I AM A stay at home mom. I am. I am available for my children whenever they need me, however I have a dirty little secret. I have my own business and as much as I want to be present for them all the time, I think about my business A LOT.
I am working tonight to get things done so I can relax as little bit more but I am mid month of a holiday month WITH team members going through a promotion. I have to check in occasionally but not constantly. However, I still have to check in. I can't just ignore my biz because I am behind on my shopping !! THIS is my life. I LOVE my life. I honestly do. I get to choose my schedule and when I work. I GET to go shopping when I want, I get to work when I want. This all sounds great right? Here is the deal. All those sentences I just said are followed by guilt. Guilt of me constantly thinking of my business and not being able to be with there 100% mentally ( I do want to say I would not change my experience for the world because I GET to be there).
Here is my question. I always wanted to be a stay at home mom which I get to be while providing an income for my family, so I feel I have the best of both worlds.
I want to know what real stay at home mom's with no outside work feel? Do you love it? Do you love it for a little bit? Do you crave something else?, Are you really content and Fulfilled? Seriously, are you fulfilled? When do you get to a place you WANT to do something else? Do you 100% faith in your spouse you are their #1?
I have so many questions! I am not trying to make anyone mad. I just feel as someone who has lived both sides, which side to I enjoy? I enjoy the side with the money I make now. I envy the side where I have only family responsibility. However, I have met enough women to know that the latter is a life that people seek, but that comes with it's own consequences of wondering if "I am enough" .
I am seriously curious as to what to true "STAY AT HOME" moms think about and worry about. Are they content?