And a new chapter begins...

I just got back from dropping my kids off at school..  Today, I start a new chapter.  Have I just let things go with my other business this summer, waiting for this day?  NO.  I have been working hard at keeping my Direct Sales business going, while balancing time with my kids and husband.  It has not been easy.

Obviously, I haven't been writing like I used to. I should have been.  I have been going through a personal transformation this summer both spiritually and mentally.  I have lost a friend after a 97 day battle with cancer.  I have dealt with the "mom guilt" of not doing all the fun things with my kids I thought we would have time for in our 14 week summer.  

Through all this, I have not questioned my faith, but rather I have been trying to figure out a way to show and portray my faith.  I am surrounded by amazing God focused women in my team. I watch their businesses booming.  I watch how they openly thank God, pray before meals, and show gratitude for what they have because of God.  

Personally, I have always been thankful, prayed, showed gratitude, but not in an open way.  So I started questioning "Should I be open?".  Am I doing something wrong?  I will admit I like to control, so I am trying to let go and "Let God".  This is a mantra I need to and am trying to adopt.  It is harder than it seems.

I read Angel Cards.  What are those?  It is a daily spiritual reading to let me know my areas of strength and weakness.  For example, the day I learned about Anna, I pulled the card: SUPPORT.  It let me know I am surrounded by angels.  I am asked daily to open my mind and listen to the angels.  They are sending me strong messages. Saturday, I opened a little bit more and have been hearing the same message from close friends, but also random tv clips, movies that come on, news stories, etc...  The message is this:  "You don't have to pretend to be anything.  Just be yourself, and be loved."  

OH MY GOSH!!!  This is SO consistent in what I am seeking.  I need to listen.  I NEED to begin this new chapter going back to believing in myself and my abilities to do what I do confidently.

Something changed in my mindset this summer.  I lost myself a bit.  I am trying to do everything SO correctly that I haven't felt enough.  I am constantly thinking I need to do better. I have had a hard time enjoying my off time because I always feel behind and my mind races with all the things I need to get done.  It is exhausting.  This business I have been building took on a new light.  Where it was just for fun before, now it is my business. NOW I have a certain amount of money I HAVE to make every month so I can contribute to my household income.  I KNOW I can do this, and I need to let go on control of the outcome and just concentrate on the little I can do every day that will keep moving me forward.  THIS is what I need to do.

I also need to begin writing again. Get my thoughts out daily. READ something business building daily. Move forward confidently.  BE THE PERSON I ALREADY AM.  

​I can do this.  TODAY....  I begin.